Sunday, August 2, 2009


Sometimes in life, you become so close to people that you start taking them for granted and don't realise their value. It is after they leave that we realise how deeply they meant to us. It may not have happened to you but it has happened with me. As a veteran to this situation I wish no one suffers this ever in their life. The empty feeling, the feeling that something very vital is missing and most importantly the feeling of lossing out.
I have never been a sort of a person who shares deep down very personal feelings with everybody. In my 11th I opened up with those thoughts of mine, which I never share with anyone, to particular 12thies. The whole of 11th I never realised how much they meant to me. I cried when they left and was genuinely sad that they were not going to be around. The sadness never struck me till I entered 12th and after the summer vacations. I always thought its going to be the same whether they are in school or not. It doesnt really matter. We spend half our day in school right? This is the most important fact that i forgot. I go to school, have friends around me but deep down I feel those two's absence. I have tried getting that close to ohter people but I doubt trust and friendship can ever come forcefully. It only took me some months to open upto both of them. When i sit in school look out in the corridor I am reminded of tyhose days when I used to sit in the same class but with a very different set of people. The way I was always referred to as "THE KID". [Yes......... I miss that too..... :(] The way I discussed everything on this earth with no hessitation. The way SARCASM was always understood. I agree i talk to both of them on the phone everyday but the face to face thing is a different thing all together. I dont know whether they feel my absence or not but i do and this absence hurts deep. I MISS YOU GUYS!!!! LOADS!!!!
This is for BOTH of you.
To A: "Jaane Kyun" I Hate(love) you!!!
To S: "Aslam Bhai" I know so much about American Pie because I have an elder brother, my best friend is a guy and my potential BF is also a guy. *touchwood*
PS: This post is not meant to be offending its just the way I feel!!!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

My Maths Class

After a week of just sunshine, comes a week of cloudy amazing weather. Okay..... not amazing but still better. It's The CARMEL FEAST. So, you expect to do SOMETHING FUN in school. Guess what? Your school decides fun for 12th standard is studying MATHS for two BLOODY periods right in the morning. As students, I am pretty sure you will not define FUN in this manner (unless you are like a geniusin maths). Okay! So your teacher enters class with same look on her face which says , "Time to slaughter." No she is not a cannibal but torturing young adults for two whole periods with "Relations and Phunctions" is murdering them slowly.
Me and S cant handle this right in the morning. So plan made, we will not PAY ANY ATTENTION. We first try and make a plan for Harry Potter 6. We list all the possibilitie, none of them work out. Chuck it! Time to play "cross and nuts". That gets boring so we plan to play the dots thingie. You know where you make dots on the page and then you make square's. Then write your initials on it. Ya..... It's fun(in a maths class only :P). But the dot thingie takes a lot of time to make so we chuck that idea too. Then we do what we do best and the BEST thing to do in a maths class. Write lyrics of songs. Both of us get bored midway ............ so that plan also doesnt work out. The BELL rings..... Yes! Only one more period to go.
The next period starts. The teacher has started suspecting that we are not paying attention so in between we start nodding just to make sure she doesnt suspect anymore. Sister checks the mic, all hopes arise in the room just to be shattered by the announcement that 6th and 7th have been called down for the feast. The rest of the period goes by checking the watch every two seconds, looking for hope from the inercom and listening to "Yam belongs to Yan." Yes..... "M belongs to N."
Yes........ I havent understood a word in the whole class. The benefit of this:- My blog gets a new post. =)

Thursday, July 2, 2009

A Wandering Teenage Mind

It's a bright and sunny morning again. You wake up early to study Maths. But guess what? You are a teenager and you have an extremely wandering mind. You wake up, brush your teeth and sit down to read the newspaper. Oh My God!! The recent much talked about celebrity couple has broken up! Yes!! Yes!!! If you are a girl the first thought that crosses your mind is to go and meet the male celebrity. There goes your wandering mind. It starts it's job of day dreaming. You dream about the male celebrity for a good half an hour. Well...... If you are like me I am considering your mind will also start forming opinions about the sports stars. Especially about "certain players" dressed as marching band members to play WIMBLEDON. Oh! Give me a break! After a good hour and half hour of forming opinions and day dreaming you sit down for breakfast. Food is IMPORTANT okay. Then you see the computer. I had to download that song and check facebook ( oh! please like someone has written on your wall in the past 8 or 9 hours of sleep that you got). Again if you are like me you have to beat your high score on that game. You sit down for like 3 to 4 hours doing ABSOLUTELY useless stuff on the computer. Ironical, you know that what you are doing is ABSOLUTELY WORTHLESS but you keep on doing it. When your mom starts giving you those murderous looks you realise its time to take a bath. Since you have nothing better to do you spend an hour taking a bath. By the time you are out of the loo, it's time for lunch. You slowly and steadily eat it. After all, you were taught as a kid that slow and steady wins the race. After lunch you go and place yourself in front of the couch to watch Television. You are surfing through the channels with the same words on your lips for every channel.... WORTHLESS. At last you find something to watch. you start watching Wimbledon and simultaneously message people. While watching Wimbledon the only thought you have in your mind is Only if only I could play like that. You pick yourself from the couch to go and listen to music. Oh! By the way the same song became irritating yesterday because you heard it so MANY TIMES. When music gets boring, you go and watch T.V. and then dinner. Finally Off to sleep.

Remember something?? You woke up early to study.Did that happen in the whole day? Did that particular thought cross your mind even once? let me answer those two questions for you its a BIG NO!!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

ITS Totally me :)

[x] yourself!

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats. [ I love cats too...... totally CONFUSED]
[] It’s hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] Shopping is torture. [Definitely if you go with my mom]
[] Sad movies stink.
[x] You own a car racing game.
[x] You played with Hot Wheels cars as a kid. [Tell me someone who hasnt, except DQ]
[] At some point in time you wanted to be a fire-fighter.
[] You owned a DS, PS2, N64,or Sega.
[] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[x] You have watched sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[] You go to your dad for advice.[This is not possible]
[] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[] You used to collect hockey cards
[x] Baggy sweats are cool to wear.
[] It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.[ Are you crazy its loads of fun]
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] You talk with food in your mouth.[ Loads of times and scolded by mom too]
[x] You sleep with your socks on at night.
[] You have fished at least once

[] You love to shop.[Umm..... NO!!!]
[] You wear eyeliner. [ Does kohl come here??? :P]
[] You wear the color pink.[ YUCK!!! NO!!!]
[x] You go to your mom to talk. [ DUH!!! She is like my bestest adviser......]
[] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like going to the mall. [ In mumbai yes cos of those video game parlours!!! YEAH!!]
[]You like getting manicures and/or pedicures. [Never got them done and no plans at the moment.]
[x] You like wearing jewelry.[ Acessories FREAK]
[x] You cried watching The Notebook.
[] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[] You don’t like the movie Star Wars.
[] You are/were in gymnastics.
[x] It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up. [ cos i sit in the room and day dream]
[x] You smile a lot more than you should. [ Always]
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[] You like wearing high heel shoes.
[x] You used to play with dolls as little kid.
[] You like putting make-up on others. [HATE.MAKE.UP.]
[] You like being the star of everything.
[] Pink is one of your favourite colors.

Appearance •

[x] I am shorter than 5′5″. [ I think so.... :/]
[x] I have many scars. [ YES and all cos of my BRO!!!]
[x] I tan/ burn easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.[DUH!! i want to die them navy blue and get silver streaks]
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo. [ Had a temprorary one]
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.[My mom is concious about mine though]
[x] I’ve had/have braces.
[] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than two piercings.
[] I have / had piercings in places besides my ears.

• Embarrassment •

[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. [i glued my hands to each other]
[x] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[x] I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[] I’ve had my pants rip in public. [ Are you CRAZY??]

• Health •

[] I’ve gotten stitches.
[] Broken a bone.
[] I’ve had my tonsils removed
[] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I’ve had serious surgery. [ almost]
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.

• Traveling •

[x] I’ve driven / riden over 200 miles in one day.
[] I’ve been to Canada.
[] I’ve been to Cuba.
[] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[] I’ve been to Ottawa.
[] I’ve gone to Sudbury.
[] I’ve been to the Caribbean.
[] I’ve been to Europe.
[] I’ve been to Florida.

• Experiences •

[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pyjamas.
[] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I’ve been to a casino.
[] I’ve been skydiving.
[] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I’ve crashed a car.
[] I’ve been skiing.
[] I’ve been in a musical.
[] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[] I’ve been snowboarding.

• Relationships •

[x] I’m single. [ I think I am kinda committed]
[] I’m in a relationship.
[] I’m engaged.
[] I’m married.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorce.
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. [ And it was for a good reason]

• Honesty / Crime •

[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out.
[] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[] I’ve ran a red light.
[] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[x] I’ve been in a fist fight.[ Ya and won also okay he let me win!!!]
[] I’ve been arrested.

• Death and Suicide •
[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I’ve seen someone / something dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted / committed suicide.
[] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

• Materialism •
[] I own over 5 rap CD’s.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime
[] I own REAL designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collected comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[] I own something I got on E-Bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.

• Random •
[x] I can sing well.
[] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[] I don’t kill bugs
[x] I sing in the shower. [Always. ALWAYS!]
[x] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair.
[x I care about grammar.
[] I have “?”’s in my screen name.
[] I love spam.
[x] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
[] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school. [if they allow me to.]
[] I know how to shoot a gun.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS...EvErY nOw AnD tHeN. [ I hate people who type like this!!!]
[x] I laugh at my own jokes
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[] I like white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[x] I’m good at remembering names.
[x] I’m good at remembering dates.
[x] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All my answers were totally honest.

Saturday, June 13, 2009


Finaly, the hectic schedule of attending tuitions is getting over. All the time running around, doing homework is finally coming to an end on the 13th of JUNE. Yes.....Now I can finally say MY summer VACAYIONS haver STARTED!!!! Yes... I will still hav eco tuitions twice a week but its only twice a week ya!! Now, I can sleep the whole day, OH! I am also going for a holiday to MUMBAI! YEAH!!! My much awaited holiday is finally taking place now. For most people 13th is an unlucky unlucky date but for me its very lucky. My Accounts tuition got over on 11th JUNE. My Maths tuition got over today and I am also donbe with my theory exam. Now, for a week I am off to Mumbai, visiting Essel WORLD anbd many other places. Then i will fullfill my quota of SLEEPING day in and day out. Of course in between all this I will take out time generously for my ACCOUNTA project and the SO-CALLED semester test of my ECO tuition. All in all its the start of my vacations. YEAH!!! :)
P.s.: yesterday my blog turned two months old!!!

Monday, June 1, 2009

A True Tennis Fan

Even if Nadal loses Wimbledon, I will still watch tennis. Even if, Djokovic doesn't play great I will still watch tennis. Even if Federer, Roddick or Murray win French Open, I will still watch tennis. Stunned ao to WHY? I will watch the game because I love the game and don't watch it for the players. Even if all my teenage life I have supported Rafael Nadal I will still watch the French Open, just to see who wins and how everyone is playing. 5 reason's why I consider myself a true TENNIS FAN:-
I) I do no give justifications or petty excuses as a supporter of a player for her?his loss. The reason is simple s?he didnt play well, so didnt win. Not because they were ill or ANOTHER PLAYER PHOBIA!!!!
II) I watch the game for it's rallies and not for the ACE'S!! The rallies, the running, the slam shots and the agression makes tge game click for me.
III) The player I support does not cry when he loses in the grand slam which is considered his and his alone.
IV) I do not switch off the television when my favourite player is losing.
V) I graciously and calmly accept the defeat of my favourite player.

Yes, there were promises I made to myself after Nadal los. These promises were:-
If Federer wins:- I will not watch any grand slam.
If Murray wins:- I will not watch tennis at all. Be it Grand Slam or ATP masters. \
If Roddick wins:- The word "tennis" doesn't exist in my life.

If Soderling wins:- I will continue to watch tennis the way I do. Oh! Come on Nadal fans accept it he was good, real good. For some reason Nadal was not better.

I would as a tennis watcher love to see Robin Soderling come up but a a Nadal fan would not like him to come up. Two contradictory thoughts together in a mind can be very disstressing!!!! I will forever love tennis. And it will be a Novak v/s Rafael final in Wimbledon. You just wait and watch!!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Summer Vacations- Ya Right

On the 12th of May 2009, the thought of summer vacations croses a 17 year old's mind. Yes...... finally no more studying day in and day out for horrible Unit Tests. Okay! Atleast for two months not studying. Well thats what you think. Wait till the evening. You have an amazing time on net, watching T.V. and listening to your I-POD. Oh! And also take a bath for an hour. Afterall, you have all the time in the world for the next month and half. Again, thats what you think!! Wait till "SUMMER VACATIONS" become the worst nitghtmare instead of a long awaited sweet dream!!
At four you realise, I should probably lift myself up from the couch and go for tuition. Afterall, it's only a harmless two hours of accounts tuition. With a lot of effort and cribbing, you start walking mindlessly to the tuition center. Just then at the tuition center, your "so called VACATIONS come to an end. As soon as the words summer Vacations started reaches my tuition teacher's ears he announce's a test. We have to do two and half chapters by next week. Now if that wasnt enough we will most probably hav classes 5 days a week conssecutively and most probably early morning. Ah! Back to school! Oh! And out of sympathy he is going to give us the weekends off! WOAH! :O Isn't he sweet?
12th May 9:30 A.M. Summer vacations start
12th May 4:35 P.M. Summer vacations come to an end :(
You had planned to watch movies, sleep like a maniac and probably eat but guess what your schedule's like:
13Th June: Music Theory Exam { You are giving Grade 4 and you dont know a NOTE}
16Th May: Economics Tuition Test { Already hav a test pendiong there}
17Th May: Maths Tuition Test
And this is the starting of vacations. OH! And my maths tuition teacher also plans to take consecutive classes for two or three weeks in the morning. (Maybe) Well..... I guess now it's time to say "HAPPY HOLIDAYS"
P.S. : A and S be happy . Nazar lag gayi mere luck ko tum dono ki!!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Multiplex Owners V/s Producers: A Boon Or A Bane

The much talked about news nowadays is not the elections but the fight between the multiplex owners and producers. Oh! Its earth shattering that since almost two weeks or so no new hindi movie has released. My God! Thats a bad news for movie buffs like me. But guess what? I think its a boon. Surprised!! Well it all started with me not deciding to watch movies (except Harry Potter-6) during this crucial board year of my life. The same Friday no new movie reaches the PVR's. WOW! Am I not lucky? Since that week no new movie has released, which I would die to watch. Yeah!! OK! PLease seriously stop cursing me. I did not wish that movies stop releasing at all. Okay maybe i just prayed that no "OH MY GOD!! AMAZING MUST WATCH MOVIES" release this year. Now I did not want the bliss of watching STUPID movies be taken from you guys.
I feel really sorry for all the people who passed 10Th and 12Th in march 2009. No mivoes to watch na...... Tsk Tsk. Still remains a boon for me. I hope this continues for a long time.
P.S.: Don't Be JEALOUS of my LUCK!!!!! Nazar mat lagao.... :P
By the way my baby(blog) turned a month old!!! YEAH!!!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Teenager Studying or Just Me?

Have you ever wondered why all the random thoughts come while studying? Wondering what kind of random thoughts? Well...........those thoughts which will not matter to you even in a million years (i.e. if you are alive). Don't get offensive I was just being realistic :P.
I sit down before my eco notes trying to study for this "ultra-important" tuition test. Obviously its "ultra-important" test because it was the first test I was giving, I had to prove I know eco and not a DHUD!!! But my mind has other plans for me that night. I have an hour long uninterrupted messaging with 4 people simultaneously. Why does messaging people not strike me when i am cribbing about getting bored? It is only during study time that the cell phone seems like an OSCAR ....... no better GRAMMY which needs to be shown off. Obviously... messaging people does show that you own a cell phone so "show off" ( ya... I am one). After a good session of messaging I should be refreshed and get back to studying. But no....... my eyes fall on the really cool grey I-POD sitting on the bed. Thats it.... there goes the eco comes the I-POD. Search........ Search..... Search....... OH! Come on out of 500 (technically471) songs at least one must be worth listening. Eventhough i won't be listening to more than a stanza of every song....... I will still listen and not study. Okay! I-Pod gets boring. Now the convincing starts. I try to convince myself to study but just then my wandering eyes catch a glimpse of the LANDLINE. The landline is not an oscar, its an angel sent from heaven. An invisible force pulls me towards it, I start pressing numbers . Tring...... Tring...... Madam sleepy head picks up the phone. So, I like a good soul let her continue her beauty sleep. So what if she is sleeping i press more numbers and talk to someone else for an hour. It's one in the night and realisation finally strikes me when i see a message which reads "Only PPC left...... Will do it tomorrow morning". And that idiot has his exam at 12 and I have it at 9! Like a shameless fool I tell myself "better late than never Prats." Welcome back eco notes...... I start cramming them...... Well thats what our education system demands right? Atleast CBSE does. TICK TOCK.......... TICK TOCK............. time is slowing down. Who said time flies? Have you noticed while texting, listening to music and talking on the phone the clock seems invisible? Its only while studying that it becomes visible and the TICK TOCK seema like blaring music.
The alarm rings. OH NO!!! It's 8:00 in the morning and test is in an hour. When did I sleep? I was supposed to study the whole night. What happened to that plan? So...... Is this just me or a normal teenager studying? I guess it's an average teenager studying. Come on .... people lets take the blame together. PLEASE