Confessions Of A Broken Writer

Sometimes when you study do the letters or numbers seem like they are dancing? It's not a sign of a budding dancer in you but the sign of you not understanding a word in that subject.

Let me introduce you to Miss. XYZ. She's a regular teenage, who goes too school and leads a normal life. It's only when she is studying a particular subject, namely ACCOUNTS, that she starts penning down her thoughts. For days she does this and thinks of it as a budding writer. The writing bit takes up the time when she should be studying. Oh! Did I mention that she hates the subject? She doesn't understand the logic behind it and feels like tearing the HUGE BOOK apart. She has no clue about what chapter is being taught is school at the moment. Well... Getting back to the writing part. Days pass by and turn into weeks but she continues to write and doesn't realise that this writing is not going to get her a seat in college.

One dark morning when she fails in accounts she realises that the writing was indeed a mode of escaping studies and not a natural talent.

Does the story remind you of someone? You? It does. Yeah.... A Miss. XYZ does exist in all of us. All of us have done everything except studying our worst subject. Unfortunately, in case of Miss. XYZ she thought it was an actual talent. Now, was it? Or was it just an escape from the subject?

Now, the broken writer is confused. So, the next time the words in the Economics book seem like lyrics from a song ignore it. It's not the budding musician in you. It's just an element of distraction. Get rid of this element as soon as you can.

Kindergarten

Do you remember the stage in your life when relationships were not defined in a set manner? Do you remember when being friendly with the opposite sex was not considered as "FLIRTING?"
I remember that time. It was called "KINDERGARTEN."


Kindergarten was the time when playing in the mud (some people eating it also :P) was considered fun. It was the time when the world seemed to be painted by taking rainbow as the brush. A for Apple, B for Ball. It was such a simple life. The greatest tension of one's life then was "tom and jerry missed. hawwww!!"



We grew up and realised that the world is not painted by taking rainbow as the brush. It may be full of these vibrant colours but then it has been splashed with black spots everywhere. we want to believe that one day we will find the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. We want to believe that on the eve of Christmas night comes Santa with Rudolph leading the sleigh. But why don't we?

With this i come back to my first question why is it that relationships are described in such a set manner? Why is it that rumors bring joy to people? Why is it always he likes her and she lies him? Maybe there is more than liking to any relationship!

I wish I could go back to kindergarten where liking didn't matter. where"I Love You" meant you are an amazing friend. It was the time when "Flirting" didn't exist. Kindergarten I miss you.
I miss being a kid. I miss believing in Santa. I miss playing in the park. I miss reading noddy and tinkle. I miss those colouring books. I miss you childhood. I genuinely miss you and i wish i coukd have you back in my life. :(

Emptiness

Sometimes in life, you become so close to people that you start taking them for granted and don't realise their value. It is after they leave that we realise how deeply they meant to us. It may not have happened to you but it has happened with me. As a veteran to this situation I wish no one suffers this ever in their life. The empty feeling, the feeling that something very vital is missing and most importantly the feeling of lossing out.
I have never been a sort of a person who shares deep down very personal feelings with everybody. In my 11th I opened up with those thoughts of mine, which I never share with anyone, to particular 12thies. The whole of 11th I never realised how much they meant to me. I cried when they left and was genuinely sad that they were not going to be around. The sadness never struck me till I entered 12th and after the summer vacations. I always thought its going to be the same whether they are in school or not. It doesnt really matter. We spend half our day in school right? This is the most important fact that i forgot. I go to school, have friends around me but deep down I feel those two's absence. I have tried getting that close to ohter people but I doubt trust and friendship can ever come forcefully. It only took me some months to open upto both of them. When i sit in school look out in the corridor I am reminded of tyhose days when I used to sit in the same class but with a very different set of people. The way I was always referred to as "THE KID". [Yes......... I miss that too..... :(] The way I discussed everything on this earth with no hessitation. The way SARCASM was always understood. I agree i talk to both of them on the phone everyday but the face to face thing is a different thing all together. I dont know whether they feel my absence or not but i do and this absence hurts deep. I MISS YOU GUYS!!!! LOADS!!!!
This is for BOTH of you.
To A: "Jaane Kyun" I Hate(love) you!!!
To S: "Aslam Bhai" I know so much about American Pie because I have an elder brother, my best friend is a guy and my potential BF is also a guy. *touchwood*
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP'S DAY!!!
PS: This post is not meant to be offending its just the way I feel!!!

My Maths Class

After a week of just sunshine, comes a week of cloudy amazing weather. Okay..... not amazing but still better. It's The CARMEL FEAST. So, you expect to do SOMETHING FUN in school. Guess what? Your school decides fun for 12th standard is studying MATHS for two BLOODY periods right in the morning. As students, I am pretty sure you will not define FUN in this manner (unless you are like a geniusin maths). Okay! So your teacher enters class with same look on her face which says , "Time to slaughter." No she is not a cannibal but torturing young adults for two whole periods with "Relations and Phunctions" is murdering them slowly.
Me and S cant handle this right in the morning. So plan made, we will not PAY ANY ATTENTION. We first try and make a plan for Harry Potter 6. We list all the possibilitie, none of them work out. Chuck it! Time to play "cross and nuts". That gets boring so we plan to play the dots thingie. You know where you make dots on the page and then you make square's. Then write your initials on it. Ya..... It's fun(in a maths class only :P). But the dot thingie takes a lot of time to make so we chuck that idea too. Then we do what we do best and the BEST thing to do in a maths class. Write lyrics of songs. Both of us get bored midway ............ so that plan also doesnt work out. The BELL rings..... Yes! Only one more period to go.
The next period starts. The teacher has started suspecting that we are not paying attention so in between we start nodding just to make sure she doesnt suspect anymore. Sister checks the mic, all hopes arise in the room just to be shattered by the announcement that 6th and 7th have been called down for the feast. The rest of the period goes by checking the watch every two seconds, looking for hope from the inercom and listening to "Yam belongs to Yan." Yes..... "M belongs to N."
Yes........ I havent understood a word in the whole class. The benefit of this:- My blog gets a new post. =)

A Wandering Teenage Mind

It's a bright and sunny morning again. You wake up early to study Maths. But guess what? You are a teenager and you have an extremely wandering mind. You wake up, brush your teeth and sit down to read the newspaper. Oh My God!! The recent much talked about celebrity couple has broken up! Yes!! Yes!!! If you are a girl the first thought that crosses your mind is to go and meet the male celebrity. There goes your wandering mind. It starts it's job of day dreaming. You dream about the male celebrity for a good half an hour. Well...... If you are like me I am considering your mind will also start forming opinions about the sports stars. Especially about "certain players" dressed as marching band members to play WIMBLEDON. Oh! Give me a break! After a good hour and half hour of forming opinions and day dreaming you sit down for breakfast. Food is IMPORTANT okay. Then you see the computer. I had to download that song and check facebook ( oh! please like someone has written on your wall in the past 8 or 9 hours of sleep that you got). Again if you are like me you have to beat your high score on that game. You sit down for like 3 to 4 hours doing ABSOLUTELY useless stuff on the computer. Ironical, you know that what you are doing is ABSOLUTELY WORTHLESS but you keep on doing it. When your mom starts giving you those murderous looks you realise its time to take a bath. Since you have nothing better to do you spend an hour taking a bath. By the time you are out of the loo, it's time for lunch. You slowly and steadily eat it. After all, you were taught as a kid that slow and steady wins the race. After lunch you go and place yourself in front of the couch to watch Television. You are surfing through the channels with the same words on your lips for every channel.... WORTHLESS. At last you find something to watch. you start watching Wimbledon and simultaneously message people. While watching Wimbledon the only thought you have in your mind is Only if only I could play like that. You pick yourself from the couch to go and listen to music. Oh! By the way the same song became irritating yesterday because you heard it so MANY TIMES. When music gets boring, you go and watch T.V. and then dinner. Finally Off to sleep.

Remember something?? You woke up early to study.Did that happen in the whole day? Did that particular thought cross your mind even once? let me answer those two questions for you its a BIG NO!!

ITS Totally me :)

[x] yourself!

YOUR BOY SIDE—
[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats. [ I love cats too...... totally CONFUSED]
[] It’s hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] Shopping is torture. [Definitely if you go with my mom]
[] Sad movies stink.
[x] You own a car racing game.
[x] You played with Hot Wheels cars as a kid. [Tell me someone who hasnt, except DQ]
[] At some point in time you wanted to be a fire-fighter.
[] You owned a DS, PS2, N64,or Sega.
[] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[x] You have watched sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[] You go to your dad for advice.[This is not possible]
[] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[] You used to collect hockey cards
[x] Baggy sweats are cool to wear.
[] It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.[ Are you crazy its loads of fun]
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] You talk with food in your mouth.[ Loads of times and scolded by mom too]
[x] You sleep with your socks on at night.
[] You have fished at least once

YOUR GIRL SIDE—
[] You love to shop.[Umm..... NO!!!]
[] You wear eyeliner. [ Does kohl come here??? :P]
[] You wear the color pink.[ YUCK!!! NO!!!]
[x] You go to your mom to talk. [ DUH!!! She is like my bestest adviser......]
[] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like going to the mall. [ In mumbai yes cos of those video game parlours!!! YEAH!!]
[]You like getting manicures and/or pedicures. [Never got them done and no plans at the moment.]
[x] You like wearing jewelry.[ Acessories FREAK]
[x] You cried watching The Notebook.
[] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[] You don’t like the movie Star Wars.
[] You are/were in gymnastics.
[x] It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up. [ cos i sit in the room and day dream]
[x] You smile a lot more than you should. [ Always]
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[] You like wearing high heel shoes.
[x] You used to play with dolls as little kid.
[] You like putting make-up on others. [HATE.MAKE.UP.]
[] You like being the star of everything.
[] Pink is one of your favourite colors.

Appearance •

[x] I am shorter than 5′5″. [ I think so.... :/]
[x] I have many scars. [ YES and all cos of my BRO!!!]
[x] I tan/ burn easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.[DUH!! i want to die them navy blue and get silver streaks]
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo. [ Had a temprorary one]
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.[My mom is concious about mine though]
[x] I’ve had/have braces.
[] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than two piercings.
[] I have / had piercings in places besides my ears.

• Embarrassment •

[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried. [i glued my hands to each other]
[x] I’ve glued my hand to something.
[x] I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[] I’ve had my pants rip in public. [ Are you CRAZY??]

• Health •

[] I’ve gotten stitches.
[] Broken a bone.
[] I’ve had my tonsils removed
[] I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
[] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I’ve had serious surgery. [ almost]
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.

• Traveling •

[x] I’ve driven / riden over 200 miles in one day.
[] I’ve been to Canada.
[] I’ve been to Cuba.
[] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[] I’ve been to Ottawa.
[] I’ve gone to Sudbury.
[] I’ve been to the Caribbean.
[] I’ve been to Europe.
[] I’ve been to Florida.


• Experiences •

[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pyjamas.
[] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I’ve been to a casino.
[] I’ve been skydiving.
[] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I’ve crashed a car.
[] I’ve been skiing.
[] I’ve been in a musical.
[] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[x] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[] I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[] I’ve been snowboarding.

• Relationships •

[x] I’m single. [ I think I am kinda committed]
[] I’m in a relationship.
[] I’m engaged.
[] I’m married.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorce.
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[x] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. [ And it was for a good reason]

• Honesty / Crime •

[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve snuck out.
[] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[] I’ve ran a red light.
[] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[x] I’ve been in a fist fight.[ Ya and won also okay he let me win!!!]
[] I’ve been arrested.

• Death and Suicide •
[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I’ve seen someone / something dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted / committed suicide.
[] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

• Materialism •
[] I own over 5 rap CD’s.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime
[] I own REAL designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collected comic books.
[] I own something from The Gap.
[] I own something I got on E-Bay.
[] I own something from Abercrombie.

• Random •
[x] I can sing well.
[] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[] I don’t kill bugs
[x] I sing in the shower. [Always. ALWAYS!]
[x] I am a morning person.
[] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[] I am a sports fanatic.
[] I twirl my hair.
[x I care about grammar.
[] I have “?”’s in my screen name.
[] I love spam.
[x] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
[] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school. [if they allow me to.]
[] I know how to shoot a gun.
[] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS...EvErY nOw AnD tHeN. [ I hate people who type like this!!!]
[x] I laugh at my own jokes
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[] I am really ticklish.
[] I like white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[x] I’m good at remembering names.
[x] I’m good at remembering dates.
[x] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All my answers were totally honest.

FINALLY- My summer VACATIONS START!!!

Finaly, the hectic schedule of attending tuitions is getting over. All the time running around, doing homework is finally coming to an end on the 13th of JUNE. Yes.....Now I can finally say MY summer VACAYIONS haver STARTED!!!! Yes... I will still hav eco tuitions twice a week but its only twice a week ya!! Now, I can sleep the whole day, OH! I am also going for a holiday to MUMBAI! YEAH!!! My much awaited holiday is finally taking place now. For most people 13th is an unlucky unlucky date but for me its very lucky. My Accounts tuition got over on 11th JUNE. My Maths tuition got over today and I am also donbe with my theory exam. Now, for a week I am off to Mumbai, visiting Essel WORLD anbd many other places. Then i will fullfill my quota of SLEEPING day in and day out. Of course in between all this I will take out time generously for my ACCOUNTA project and the SO-CALLED semester test of my ECO tuition. All in all its the start of my vacations. YEAH!!! :)
P.s.: yesterday my blog turned two months old!!!